I remember being about 4 when you had me on the back porch. You were about to comb my hair, you had all these different color rubber bands. You gave me ponytails all over my head. The different color rubber bands all over my head was so beautiful. I remember so well because I loved you so much for making me look so beautiful. I never for got you fixing my hair or buying me my first watch with hearts. You truly were that rare gift that I thank God for. Daddy I pray that you are happy, because I could not handle anything else. I love you forever and always, You are that part of me that I feel so deeply. The love the gratitude the passion the laughter and pain is so stirred up in me. I feel you at times so strongly that I just need to be with you. Daddy the pain is unbearable, my heart is in bad shape and still it try's to beat on love on it try's to cope the best way it can. but it is feeling the urgency to just stop. Daddy please I need to know that you are okay, I pray I meditate I beg I bargain whatever it takes to get back to you. There is this beautiful red bird that appears it seems when I am at my lowest, Amd it perches itself right where I can see him. So very strange but beautiful daddy. I just don't no anymore, all I know for sure is that I love you and want to be with you. Daddy this is your day I honor and love you on this day. God gave me the best when I was born, for I look into the eyes of love. How beautiful those eyes were that looked at me. I want to thank you God for giving me this beautiful man. I will just keep hanging on until that day that I can see my daddy face. Antoine Bell you are one beautiful magnificent individual that God gave to our family you truly were a real expression of love my Daddy my love my heart.

The best gift I ever gave my kids, was the gift of living upstairs over my parents. How they loved that gift. Daddy you are in every loving memory we had on Cherrylawn. The tip toeing late at night to tease the kids. Or you sitting on our upstairs landing with your beer making sure the babysitter was okay. Christmas was the best on Cherrylawn. You would tip toe upstairs and watch Andrew putting together all the toys. How you loved it so, and mama downstairs in the kitchen doing what she does best. Throwing down in the kitchen, life was so perfect daddy. You always took care of the kids bikes and other toys outside. How they love there Papa, you were the perfect excessory in our life. You made our life so perfect, you gave our kids so many beautiful memories. The memories are piled up so high, that you will be with them for the rest of there life.Andrew sez he can't believe how much he misses you both. And that he loved you both. No one will ever have in laws like mine, because mine turned into something beautiful beyond all reasoning. You were such a powerful,loving funny family man. You loved your family so much, What a beautiful legacy to leave a family.Daddy life was breathtaking with you in it, I Miss those beautiful eyes and all the mischief you seem to stay in. What a joy God he was, What a incredible human being my Daddy was. Life will never be the same for me ever, FOR I have lost THE LOVE OF A LIFE TIME MY DADDY ANTOINE BELL. 4ever & always my love.

Antoine Bell was the man God gave me as a father, what a blockbuster gift that was for a little girl. I loved him so the first time I realized what a father was. How blessed I was I was enamoured by his presence. I remember being 4 or 5 years old sitting on the back porch of our 2 story home. He was about to comb my hair, he had a bag of different color rubber bands. He gave me a head full of pony tails with all the colored rubber bands. I remember thinking how beautiful I look because my daddy did my hair. I also remember how he would make me paper dolls out of grocery bags. How I still to this day love paper dolls. My daddy was unbelievable, he stole my heart. Dear God how I love being his daughter. I must have been about 7 years old when he brought me this watch the band was made of little brass hearts. I loved it so, til this day my love of hearts came from him. I keep them all over my house, what a joy to realize that my love of hearts and dolls came from my first love my daddy. I remember my brothers and sisters being very young, he would bath us what a funny memory that turn out to be. He would line us up 2 or 3 at a time, throw us in that tub and clean us. It reminded me of a car wash, you know how big and scary those brushes looked as you sat in the car and would go threw the car wash. But in reality they were very soft. That is how his loving baths would be. They only lasted a minute or two, then he would wrap you in that towel tight, start at your ears and go down the towel til he reached your feet. Then it was who's next. How I miss my dad. You will always be a precious 24 carat gold memory. Thank you God for that amazing gift known as my daddy. Hearts and paper dolls to you daddy. I will always color you LOVE.